It's 4am... Anyone seen my sanity?

I can't sleep... Keeping my mind occupied by fantasizing about moving to Oregon and tricking out a Cargo Van as a camping vehicle (as well as daily driver of course)... But man, my head is swimming in this fantasy. It is the scaled down version of when I first wanted a bus to convert.. a short bus... not one of them big suckers... But like my possessions, I have scaled down my fantasy too. Got some not so good news about my SSDI hearing... but not horrible bad either... Just looks like it is pushed back from this month to March.... This also means I am not sure where I will be living... Because I am soon to be booted from my current living situation. But oh well... I don't like Florida... but either trying to live in a one room studio with my mom in Indiana or living on the streets may be my only option soon... Talk about minimizing my life... No possessions or a roof over my head... Kind of a scary thought... But not gonna dwell on it right now... at 4am, as I try to wash my brain out with conversion van therapy. Gotta keep my head up, eyes forward. Some days it's harder than others... and I am still practicing trying to focus on the positives and fight off the negatives. Somedays I will stumble... like today... I will just try and wrap today up and get some sleep. Call a do over tomorrow.