Day two around people...

Not quite as intense as last night... but the night is still young. I don't know why it never dawned on me that a lot of my "issues" really are completely social related; just knowing people are around me, under the same roof is really enough to drive me into a full blown rage. It used to be enough to just close my door and block "them" out... But now that doesn't offer enough of a bullshit barrier. How the fuck do people do relationships? It's fucking impossible to be in the same house with someone... let alone share intimate space. To hear them talk... to feel their breath on you... how do people not scream, "Fuck You" as they crumple, like paper, into a ball... I have become internet integrated...

I breathe so much easier when human interaction has an off button. I really like the off button... the off buttons, or that little "x" to close a screen... when I click it, everyone goes away... they stop invading my space... and it feels good... and hey, it's then that I am a really swell guy!!!! and I could so totally be into you... and as long as you aren't near me... we'll get along swimmingly!!! I love you when I can't see you. I love you more when the tab is closed. It's when you have no way to connect to me

that I can fully relax with you... I cherish those times with you the most.